🐌 TREE 783: So slowly it looks like a stop

You choose ‘grow slowly’ as a sign-off and then life goes, Ok, let’s see just how slowly you can grow. And you say, No! I meant slowly like bamboo, not slowly like lichen, but it’s too late and you can either spend your life frustrated or learn to enjoy it.

The situation I find myself in is that I can’t get the FFOREST worry and anxiety project launched because when I took those two weeks off a while back I didn’t get the TREE stuff sorted like I planned, then I tried to move forward with the new thing anyway, then I ended right back in the place where I was before: spending all my free time writing TREE and getting nowhere with the new thing. Not only that, there are a bunch of smart, interesting people ready to write TREE posts, but I haven’t organised the details with them.

What I’m saying is that my shit is untogether. Over the weekend Christine helped me understand that I wouldn’t get it together unless I created some serious space.

Side note: as a person who is committed to trying to get as close to reality as possible, it’s embarrassingly impressive how far away from it I was in my own head and how frustrating my la la living was making me and how necessary an outside voice was to bring me back to what actually needs to happen.

What needs to happen is I need to sort out TREE so that it can be created more quickly and with more guest writers. This will require many hours of upfront work. For some reason, my employer is not willing to pay me to do this, my body is refusing to have less sleep, and I am refusing to give up exercise or BSL or spending time with my family.

That leaves TREE.

I have to stop TREE for a while again so I can do the work that enables me to carry on with TREE and open up a lovely new meadow in the FFOREST that I think will be a place of hope and peace (and monsters) for us all.

How long will it take?
A month, maybe more.

Will FIELD GUIDE continue every couple weeks or so?
Yes.

Will you keep us updated on progress?
Yes.

Thanks for sticking with us! This little community has brought an immeasurable amount of good info my life. I hope it’s good for you too.

I’ll be in touch.
Jeff

Here’s Johnny Marr doing that lush Johnny Marr thing: