đ TREE 783: So slowly it looks like a stop
You choose âgrow slowlyâ as a sign-off and then life goes, Ok, letâs see just how slowly you can grow. And you say, No! I meant slowly like bamboo, not slowly like lichen, but itâs too late and you can either spend your life frustrated or learn to enjoy it.
The situation I find myself in is that I canât get the FFOREST worry and anxiety project launched because when I took those two weeks off a while back I didnât get the TREE stuff sorted like I planned, then I tried to move forward with the new thing anyway, then I ended right back in the place where I was before: spending all my free time writing TREE and getting nowhere with the new thing. Not only that, there are a bunch of smart, interesting people ready to write TREE posts, but I havenât organised the details with them.
What Iâm saying is that my shit is untogether. Over the weekend Christine helped me understand that I wouldnât get it together unless I created some serious space.
Side note: as a person who is committed to trying to get as close to reality as possible, itâs embarrassingly impressive how far away from it I was in my own head and how frustrating my la la living was making me and how necessary an outside voice was to bring me back to what actually needs to happen.
What needs to happen is I need to sort out TREE so that it can be created more quickly and with more guest writers. This will require many hours of upfront work. For some reason, my employer is not willing to pay me to do this, my body is refusing to have less sleep, and I am refusing to give up exercise or BSL or spending time with my family.
That leaves TREE.
I have to stop TREE for a while again so I can do the work that enables me to carry on with TREE and open up a lovely new meadow in the FFOREST that I think will be a place of hope and peace (and monsters) for us all.
How long will it take?
A month, maybe more.
Will FIELD GUIDE continue every couple weeks or so?
Yes.
Will you keep us updated on progress?
Yes.
Thanks for sticking with us! This little community has brought an immeasurable amount of good info my life. I hope itâs good for you too.
Iâll be in touch.
Jeff
Hereâs Johnny Marr doing that lush Johnny Marr thing:
Iâm helping to plan my daughterâs wedding right now and even though Iâm retired, I just canât seem to organize it efficiently. The calls and vendor searchings come in spurts. Your mention of âcreating spaceâ speaks to me. No apologies necessary. Sharing your honest process is helpful in and of itself.
Thank you for admitting youâre human! Iâm empathic to your situation, although time is less of an issue for me. Iâm just drained of creative energy these days. Godspeed on your quest, Jeff! I hope you find both the time AND energy you need to clear the way to the new patch of FFOREST.